So I was surprised with a new car. It is a well-maintained 1990 Accura Intgera GS. I really liked driving it for a week, but know I don't know if I will be able to keep it. Sean got it from his sis, and now I don't know if he wants to give it back to her or not. I love this car so much too, it has power EVERYTHING! I like power, that's just what I'm into. I love giving power, and taking it away from someone. I like having power over someone. I really like the idea of forcing a person to dress a certian way (fetish stuff) and taking them to go out and do mundane things like take them to go to the bank. Or tying a person up. I guess that's why I really like BDSM and other fetishes. I've been tying up people since I was a little kid. It wasn't sexual then, it was just something that gave me pleasure. I once tied up a kid in the first grade upside-down to a chain link fence by his shoe laces. When I worked as a volenteer at that same school while I was a senior in high school I looked at that fence and I could still see the knotted laces from his shoes that they left there when the teachers cut him down. I had a lot of fun that day, and I never got punished for it. When I got away with it, I was encouraged to keep doing it, and I still am when I get the chance!

I have been in suck a state of shock for the past two days. I had a horrible dream that we were stuck with an inept president who took us to war for no good reason. Then I woke up, looked at the TV screen and saw the numbers, and cried because I wasn't dreaming. To any one who voted for Bush who might read this, congrats. Your puppet won, my puppet lost. But leave my statements be, I'm going through a mourning period. I have heard a lot of people talking about a draft right now, lots of stupid jokes saying, "it's getting chilly, there must be a draft coming!" Ha ha. I do not find any form of slavery to be funny, and being picked out to serve and die for your county against your will is a form of slavery. I am not one of those though who believe that there will be a draft, but at the same time I am weary of such a thing happening. Politicians lie, or they change their minds and chose to do something else. This is called being human and we all do it. For all the people out there who are for a draft, fine. If you think it is a good idea, you must think it would be better for people to volunteer before the need for a draft, right? Well then if you are of age, are you going to enlist? If you are not of age but have children or loved ones who are, are you raising them in an environment that encourages them to enlist? WHY NOT! IF you are for people going to war to support this country, why not make the ultimate sacrifice and support it yourself? Put your money where your mouth is or shut up. I have many friends over in Iraq right now, three who have come back but sent right out again after one week of being home and 6 months out there. Even my severely injured friend was sent right back as soon as he had healed from the 2nd degree burns all over his body. Our men and women over there have been there too long. They have been fooled into thinking that they would only be there for 6 months at a time, and that they would be home soon. My stepbrother alone was there for nearly a year and a half, and when he came home for a break he was luckily honorably discharged on medical leave. The rest of the people over there need a break, why don't you enlist so someone over there can come home to their family for the holidays.